Tuesday, 26 October 2010

Lets play Pretend

Its Autumn oh my! Its wonderful it truley is come have tea with me with tiny tea cups and tasty treats!

Come outside with me and lets go Exploring.

Lets go on a nature walk with my amazing nieces and collect things with them such as leaves and pinecones. 

Lets pretend that they visit more often and that they could be happier and have all the lovely things that little princesses deserve.

Lets pretend that being nice to people and geuinely caring about them wont make them walk all over you and take you for granted.

Let us pretend that things will be better for them and everyone else in our families and that everyone would be more understanding and sensible for a change and less selfish.

Let us pretend that i didnt have to go back to my exhausting and really rotten old job, and that it didnt make me constantly tired and sore. That it doesnt set me back from doing things that i love.

Let us pretend that smile on my face was for real and that i wouldnt have to do it so that everyone else wouldnt worry about me.

Let us pretend that we wont feel akward at halloween or christmas when people in your family have treated and hurt you so badly for absolutley nothing.

Let us pretend that their is still is hope and that things will get better and that you didnt have to have that cry on Sunday night or you could sleep and eat right again.

Let us pretend that making halloween costumes will somehow bring you back to your own world and a happy place again.

Let us pretend that your favourite halloween treat you get yearly is so amazing that the smile was real when you bit into it.

Lets pretend that everything is alright to everyone and that everyone you thought you knew and loved including friends actually gave a damn instead of using you.

Let us pretend that someone will actually understand or listen.

Let us pretend that you dont feel like you need to go to hospital with the stress of trying to talk about what your going through.

Least i dont have to pretend in my art.


Exhibition ends on the 30th of October.

Friday, 22 October 2010

Alice Syndrome

Alice Syndrome by ~feathereyelashes on deviantART

Waaaah I feel like ive been neglecting my photography way to much. :sad:

Because of my new job depending on what shift i have depends on how tired or time ill have to do more art sadly. But i found some time today to do this idea thats been in my head for a while. :love:

This piece is based on Alice in Wonderland syndrome, yes this is a real condition. Wiki explains that...


"Alice in Wonderland syndrome (AIWS, named after the novel written by Lewis Carroll), also known as Todd's syndrome is a disorienting neurological condition which affects human perception. Sufferers may experience micropsia, macropsia, and/or size distortion of other sensory modalities. A temporary condition, it is often associated with migraines, brain tumors, and the use of psychoactive drugs."

"Eye components are entirely normal. The AIWS is a result of change in perception as opposed to the eyes themselves malfunctioning. The hallmark sign of AIWS is a migraine (AIWS may in part be caused by the migraine).[citation needed] AIWS affects the sufferer's sense of vision, sensation, touch and hearing, as well as one's own body image.

The most prominent and often most disturbing symptom is that of altered body image: the sufferer will find that they are confused as to the size and shape of parts of (or all of) their body.

The eyes themselves are normal, but the sufferer 'sees' objects with the wrong size or shape and/or finds that perspective is incorrect. This can mean that people, cars, buildings, etc. look smaller or larger than they should be, or that distances look incorrect; for example a corridor may appear to be very long, or the ground may appear too close.

In addition, some people may experience more intense and overt hallucinations, seeing things that are not there and misinterpreting events and situations in conjunction with a high fever."



Its just so fascinating im such a nerd for mental and human abnormalities, because i could research them for hours to understand them better.

Ill try to get round everyones submissions and comments soon :love: much love

 Art Archive

Friday, 15 October 2010

Materialistic, time, nature and halloween

Im sorry for the lack of art and updates, been having my ups and downs with emotions im still not fully healed from the family matters. But also because of returing to my old job which has been very tiring. But I have been sleeping sorta better and eating sorta better.

Recently I also did some dury duty for the exhibition my work is in, it was a really nice atmosphere to sit in the quiet with all the arts and crafts around me. It was surreal but peaceful and it felt good to be on the other side of the table.

I got also a lovely email from one of the ladies behind the event. I’ve hung it up on my wall for positive vibes next to my reply email from Amanda palmer.

Been working on some new paintings, im trying to get better at my mediums and my style as much as I love drawing vulnrable stick like figures.

I completed my rule of rose game also which was very sad and beautiful, im sad its over I loved the story and characters so much dispite how wicked they were.

Over the past couple of months I have aquried some new materialistic items its been the first ive got anything in a long time. Im so careful with my money I always cringe at expensive things unless it is gifts or cant be helped.

My mum got me this beautiful Victorian stamp oh it is so lovely that im afraid to use it on anything yet incase I ruin it.


I also got myself some pretty knee high stockings and new shoes, I have been itching for 1930s clothing, my new shoes are so smart and comfy and socks keep me warm since Autumn is here. I have not yet did any frolicked in the leaves and forests yet.
Found this really old sketchbook I got years ago, its so celtic and enchanting looking that ive not used it for anything yet. I may used it for some poetry or little stories I come up with just don’t want to ruin its perfection! ;O;

This tiny doll tea set caught my eye aswell and it was only 1 pound so I had to get it, it’s inspired me to do new photography which I will work on soon. You'll have to wait and see.

Im looking forward to halloween also, ive been so undescisive with what i want to be but now i think i want to be an animal such as a deer or rabbit or a jakalope! Or even a doll is very tempting. I want to make some of my costume at least being a productive so and so.

I must also say that ive became very fond of Lewis Carrol thanks to a fellow artist
And also finding out from
about a film created by Marylin Manson on Lewis Carrol it looks very good and symbolic im very very curious.

Tuesday, 5 October 2010

job and ball of air trapped between my tummy and chest

I ended up going back to my old job which i left on good terms, job hunting wasnt turning out so good. I didnt really want to go back its a very stressful job being a catering assistant. Theirs nothing really artistic or creative about it unless you do something with food at least but theirs a lot of cleaning, mess, soreness and multitasking as i remember.

I needed the money in more ways than one so had not much choice even tho ive not felt well since my first shift already. Feels like the pocket of air stuck inside me which a mix of sickness and constant exhaustion when i barely did anything.

It would be nice to be able do an artistic job but i dont know what to do or where to go for that, maybe im just not skilled enough for that kinda work even tho its mostly what i can only do.

Their has been some paintings and a ugly doll in the making but my new job makes me very exhausted and im afraid i may not be able to post as much as art as i would want but i know i still will.

Tired of feeling ill and stressed tho, theirs still a lot of negative stuff in my family thats hard to cope with.

And on a silly note im at one of the last chapters in my rule of rose game but the fighting controls are so rubbish i cant get past it, i may never know the end of the story or what ending ill get noooooooooooo! its very sad!

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